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Showing posts with label David. Show all posts
Showing posts with label David. Show all posts

Friday, August 24, 2012

How to rest


Read: Job 2 [note: 11-13], and 2 Samuel 12 [note: 15-17]
 
 
Rest. 

Something we talk about when we’re frazzled; in seasons of busyness and full-throttle forward-motion.  Something we ascribe to monastics, to clerics, to desert-dwelling mothers and fathers of the faith.  Something a bit lost in mainstream evangelicalism.  For, no matter the circumstances, we are to wear ourselves out with service.  Whatever trial we’re in, we either need to be serving our way through it; or teaching from it.  There are great lesson of faith and perseverance tucked into our trials, to be sure.  And each is a testament to God’s great and abiding love and faithfulness.  Certainly, others who are walking a similar road can benefit from our experience, when told in the spirit of transparency, so that God may be glorified, even in the midst of the storm.    
Yet, in times of difficulty; times when the path you’re on is failing to rise to meet your feet, when you want the conductor of the rollercoaster of your days to stop it so you can recover your equilibrium, when the waiting has stretched you so thin that it feels like there is nothing of you left, in those times, are we supposed to try to serve and give?  Or are we meant to rest and to be attended to?

In the second chapter of Job, we find that not only has he lost his fortune, his children, and his health, but his wife has basically abandoned him as well.  [When a loved one’s advice is, “curse God and die,” I don’t think they’re emotionally or spiritually present with you anymore.]  But Job doesn’t get up and start preaching to her, trying to show her the folly of her words.  Instead, he sits.  His friends come to visit him, knowing he needs support.  But Job doesn’t jump up and play the host.  They sit with him in his mourning; and he doesn’t move.  He rests solely in the truth with which he had answered his wife, “Shall we accept good from God and not trouble?”  Job rests in the fact that no matter the situation, God is sovereign over all. 
In the twelfth chapter of 2 Samuel, we find David, confronted with his sin [stealing another man’s wife, having her husband killed, and then marrying the woman he seduced] by the prophet Nathan.  David admits his sin, yet still his son is struck ill.  David stops all activity, spending nights lying on the ground in sackcloth [remember, he’s the king] and pleading with God.  His servants stand at the ready to help him to his feet.  But David doesn’t move.  Though he’s crying out for intervention, he is also resting in God’s sovereignty; knowing that the outcome of his situation is entirely in the Lord’s hands.

Neither men relent in their rest.  They don’t eventually go back to work; they don’t preach from their pulpit of ash and misery.  They wait.  They cry out.  They rest in the fact that God is in control.  For one, things eventually turn out more joyously than they began; for the other, they ended with death.   But the truth is that God is sovereign over both the happy and sad endings. 

God is God.
A friend recently illuminated that I was in such a season.  But, I argued with her as I had already with God, I need to be doing something.  I can’t just sit.  Not with all that I’ve been given; not with all that’s at stake for so many.  I have to do something.  She smiled with gentle warmth and proffered, “Might this not be what you’re supposed to be doing right now?  Learning to rest?”

It’s certainly not the rest of Sabbath; a joy-filled worship-full repose beside still waters.  Yet, it is a rest from the daily busyness and rushing.  It is restful for my spirit to spend more time in prayer, more time in the word, more time with God.  So perhaps the waiting is the purpose, so that I [or David or Job or even you, dear one] may draw nearer to God.  And that we might all rest in His sovereignty.           

Friday, August 17, 2012

What Joy looks like through tears


Read: Job 1:13-22, Psalm 142


Today was hard.  I had to let go of something that has been a source of deep and abiding joy for me.  And yes, I waited until the last possible moment; hoping for the hail Mary pass that didn’t come.   Instead, I’m left praying it’s not a permanent release.  Yet if it is, God is still sovereign.  This morning also brought with it news that has the ability to stifle hope.  Again.  And the Officer and I, together, are still smack-in-the-middle of a time of decided trial which has been marked with a series of false peaks and mirages; this wilderness has consumed a quarter of our year, and still we have no respite in sight.  Another beloved of my heart has had news of the life-altering flavor; and I can’t but hurt with them.           
So a resolution to joy may seem forced.  But joy isn’t a painted on smile and an “everything’s peachy-keen” attitude.  Joy might be recognition of who attends your situation; the acknowledgement of the One from whom your strength, on the weariest, days comes.    

In the first chapter of Job and Psalm 142, we find two men encountering different varieties of the pain a fallen world can provide.  Both Job and David knew what to do in times of hurt; times of grotto dwelling and ash sitting.  Each first recognized the hurt they felt, and then proclaimed God sovereign over his circumstance.
Within the space of four verses, Job loses his entire fortune, all of his servants, and each one of his children.  We could understand how Job could have lost every shred of joy.  And we do see Job react to the news in an emotionally appropriate way: he tore his clothes and shaved his head in mourning.  Yet immediately afterward, he fell to the ground

…and worshiped.
We are told that in his proclamation that “naked [he] came from [his] mother’s womb; and naked will [he] depart.  The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised,” Job “did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.”[1]  Job recognized the sovereignty of God, in spite of and even through his circumstances.  And so while he was in full mourning (and appropriately so), Job demonstrated what scriptural joy in crappy situations looks like.

David is known for crying out to God in every situation, good or bad.  In Psalm 142, he cries out to God for mercy and rescue.    He proclaims an expectation that God will be good to him.  He says that the Lord is his refuge, even when rescue is in the future tense.  Speaking thus, David is able to decry his circumstance and still claim God as sovereign over even the situations (and people) that have driven David into hiding, into literally skulking about in a cave, fearing for his life and the as-yet-to-be-made-real promises of Almighty God.  
         
Thus, I submit that joy is neither circumstantial, nor does it mean faking happiness.  Joy allows for truth in our emotions.  We can cry, we can mourn, we can say that our situation sucks.  So long as, at the end of the day, we land firmly on the truth that God is God.  And He is sovereign over our stuff, our circumstances; and He is deserving of our worship.  Even if all we can say is, “You are God.”

On days like Job’s or David’s, even my today, joy looks like breathing.   In and out.  In and out.   

And worship can simply mean saying, “God reigns.” 





[1] Job 1:21-22